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今天一无所获。想想倒也不是,我还是收获了点东西,如办公室的摸鱼技巧、加密市场的横盘焦虑。
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若一个人想使他思想更加深邃,那他这样做的目的是什么?想变得思想深邃的目的是什么?
对于我来说,一是为了思想本身的快乐;二是为了交朋友时能吹牛逼;三是提升赚钱能力。当抽掉了“提升赚钱能力”这个目的后,我觉得我对“思想深邃”的兴趣大大减弱,几乎没有。
这是个问题。我的思想目前处于病态。
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其实就一件事:你的终身事业是什么?你想清楚了吗?如果没有,你打算怎么让自己想清楚,打算什么时候想清楚?如果想清楚了,那你打算什么时候开始?
这方面可以向华杉老师学习。
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Since my American friend went back to the US, I haven't contacted her for a long time. Sometimes I feel the time of our staying together is a dream as we once hang out so often on every weekends and talk so honestly and intensely about our life, value, hobbies, family etc. when she was still in Dar es Salaam.
When you’re in a dream, you feel everything is real. You meet someone there. Talk with them. Play with them. Feel the emtional ebb and flow. Suddenly the alarm going off, you wake up and wash your face. Then, EVERYTHING IS GONE. Whoever you meet, a scaring devil or a super decent spouse etc., they’re all gone. The emotion from those exerpiences in your mind also totally disappears. They never exist. It’s just a dream.
The friendship between me and this friend is almost the same as this. It seems she never exists in my life after she left.
I don’t know what I’m supposed to say. All is like a dream.
4月15日 周一 阴
写于坦桑尼亚·达累斯萨拉姆
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